Archive for the ‘the babe’ Category


Well, I made big plans, but didn’t get much done. What a surprise. Also, I ended up with a flu like thing last week. However, the little girl does have a closet now! I painted the doors months ago, but painted the inside over the weekend. Did a lot of organizing in the kitchen as […]

32 weeks


I haven’t posted about the baby in awhile. I started this blog pretty early in my pregnancy, when I was ambivalent, scared, depressed and freaked out about it. I felt weird and guilty about blogging about her after all the horrible feelings I had about being pregnant. After my first 3-D ultrasound, at 11 weeks, […]

fake book


I posted the ultrasound stills of the baby on Facebook and anounced the pregnancy.  A slow, wry smile formed across my face as I typed, “we are so excited and drunk with joy” (or, something like that)  If all those “friends” and relatives I rarely speak to knew that only a couple of days ago […]

good news


Our genetic counselor called first thing this morning. The Babe’s numbers are high enough that we’ve decided not to move forward with any other more invasive tests. This is really great news. We didn’t have to do any of this testing but, I’m nuts, so I would never have survived not knowing until the end. […]

For this post, I also Googled Images for, “preachers with big hair”. I have many new movies to watch. I can’t seem to stick with a film longer than 10 minutes before starting a new one. I feel as though I’m going to claw my way right out of my own skin or hurl myself […]

Just the two of us, the baby and I as g couldn’t be there. He’s been to all of our apts so it wasn’t the same without him. The testing went just fine. The Babe is pretty cute. I’m still trying to figure out how to write about these new feelings regarding the pregnancy and […]


Simply because of my age I get all kinds of genetic testing for The Babe. I’m having another ultrasound tomorrow because the baby was vertical on Tuesday and they were unable to get the the clear pictures they need to make a proper diagnoses. I’m perfectly confident that the baby is healthy and does not […]

right on


in 3d


We had the ultrasound and the baby is so beautiful. Really the most amazing thing I’ve ever seen.

His words were raining down on me, “you can do this, Sweetheart, it’s just the depression.  I will owe you everything, Victoria, if you go on- if you keep our baby, I know this is what you want, too, I know you want this, but you are so scared. You are just so scared.” As […]

We went to a movie then for shitty pizza. It wasn’t as much the pizza as it was the atmosphere. We were seated next to the restrooms in a table among other tables that seemed to have been set up at the last minute because they ran out of room. The place was absolutely freezing […]

After 4 weeks of pregnancy I didn’t want to be pregnant anymore. God forbid anything be the least bit difficult in my life leaving me no choice but to whine. Ugh, the realization that I’d actually have to work at something so hard for the rest of my life. I’m going to be forced to […]